Beyond

Moments of joy
slowly breaking through,
I start to fly again,
start to dream,
and lift my eyes up-
to the horizon
and beyond.

Beyond me is a whole world,
unexplored,
unfelt.
And despite the pain,
despair,
rejection,
fear,
despite all I associate with feeling,
I desire to feel-
feel the world,
feel God in the world,
travel beyond me
and live again.

Today the sea shines,
bright sun's rays
dancing on the crests.
I start to dance too,
dance with God
in the wide open spaces
he created.
I feel the freedom of the cliff tops,
start to live again,
dare to travel
beyond myself,
beyond the fear that tells me
to hold back,
not to touch
nor allow myself to be touched,
not to feel.

And as fear
gradually gives way,
I start to fly again,
start to dream,
and lift my eyes up-
to the horizon
and beyond.