Anxiety

It's been a tough couple of weeks, I have struggled with anxiety, and I wasn't sure I would manage to sit and write anything today... but as I walked my dog alone in the stormy weather this morning, I started thinking about what it's like having GAD & OCD. The turmoil hidden beneath the organised exterior. Trying to put it into words has been quite therapeutic this afternoon.


This
is the overwhelming silence
of waiting
for the internal din
to fall mute,
and the scales oscillating
with probabilities
to stand stationary.
This
is the constant movement
of immobility
as the shifting ground
gives way,
and we free fall
motionless
into the uncontrollable vacuum.
This
is unfounded fear.